On My Own!

Ryan left!

Ryan and I have been really good friends since my sophomore year in college. Although we have been all over the world the past so many years we still have managed to keep in touch. After Ryan graduated college I didn't see him for a good 2 years after that. We have ran into each other a few times in Pittsburgh and in New York, but never for a long period of time. Having Ryan here this past month has been such a blessing. You have no idea how much of a help he was. I borrowed his car, I had a place to stay for the first three weeks, he drove me everywhere, spent 5 hours at a car dealership looking to buy a car (and then didn't end up buying it), helping me with the show, etc. I was so fortunate to have him here to help me. It was also really nice to spend time together!

I say this all the time, but this business has its ups and downs. You meet some of the most amazing people...but then it always sucks because you have to pick yourself up and move on to the next job! And the big sucky part is that you never know when your paths with a certain person will cross again. I mean, Ryan and I hadn't seen each other in 2 years! I may not see him again until 2009!

Another good friend of mine Ashley...many of you may know from Youngstown...I haven't seen her in almost a year now...actually I think it has been a FULL Year! Ashley and I saw each other almost every day since the 7th grade all the way through college! When will I see her again!?! I have no clue! And it SuCkS!

I am so lucky to have such a wonderful support system. It just REALLY sucks that they are spread all over the US!...and the World!

Ryan introduced me to some of his really great friends here in Las Vegas. They have all been very supportive! Ryan told me if I ever needed anything to go to "these" people. But again, when this job is over...I will pack up my bags and move on!

It's just so weird. I had one of the greatest months ever hanging out with my good bud Ryan. And it just sucks that you have NO IDEA when that time will come around again!

I do feel a little bit on my own. The day Ryan left I really really felt weird. I had the sudden realization that I have no friends and no family here...and I am officially on my own. Who do I call when I have my 5th flat tire!?! Ha! So I guess its that time to start over. Time to build new friendships!

Life is just weird. When I really stop and think about it, it just boggles my mind; that I can have such wonderful amazing people in my life...but I never know when I will get to see them next. Why can't I be surrounded by these awesome positive people every day?

I am a little down in the dumps, but I have been going to the gym to compensate!

Well, actually I am headed off to the gym right now! I need to get going. Then I have 2 shows tonight!

I will write more about the show and Las Vegas later. I just wanted to write this entry because it has been on my mind. "It's just weird."


And To All My Friends:

Thank you for always being there no matter how far away you are. I love you all and I CANNOT WAIT UNTIL WE MEET AGAIN!